One of my bloggy besties TC, inspired this post. She recently blogged about stepping away from the Twilight world for a while & how Twilight has changed her...
It got me thinking...
I read Twilight in late July of 2009, so this Summer will be my two year Twi-versary. Time really flies!
Palm Springs late August 09', re-reading the saga for the first of MANY times!
I have always been one to live by the simple life philosophy that everything happens to us for a reason, whether we know what that reason is at the time or not. I now know why Twilight came into my life....
Two years ago DG & I had been dating FOREVER, and he still hadn't proposed. We had talked about marriage most of our relationship, kids too. But in 09' I was starting to get very discouraged. He kept assuring me it would happen, and to let it happen, but it wasn't HAPPENING! I think I was at a crossroads. I knew I loved him deeply and couldn't imagine not being with him, but I also couldn't imagine going on like we were...not moving forward. Sure we'd lived together for 4 years, and he reminded me constantly that he never would have bought a place with me had he not planned to marry me, but it just wasn't happening.
Right about the time I started to get really down, Twilight entered my life. It's no surprise to any of you that I was in love...with the books, then the movies & ultimately all of the characters that brought the books to life. I spent hours & hours each day on the internet checking for update to my favorite blogs/fansites, watching Twilight, looking for new photos/news, New Moon set pics, pap pics of the cast, especially ROB. It consumed every fiber of my being.
Luckily, DG was supportive. I look back now and realize that more & more...he really let me immerse myself in it, and though it wasn't his thing, I think he was fascinated. Of course the passion I had for Twilight lead to the birth of Twired. I wasn't sure how he'd react to that, but he he seemed pretty proud that I was channeling my
Now almost 2 years later I'm engaged & getting married on September 30th. I don't know exactly how different things may have been had I not had Twilight as a distraction/obsession...It kept me focused on something, & made me happy. For a while... I wasn't happy. I can't say Twilight fixed it all, but again...had I not been so consumed with it, I might have spent even more time obsessing over the fact that DG and I weren't moving forward...I might have actually decided to move on, as heartbreaking as it would have been, because I didn't have anything distracting me from actually doing it. I'm not saying I wouuld have left him had Twlight not coming along...I just think I NEEDED Twilight at that time in my life... Does this make any sense? ANYWAYS, starting a new job as well as getting engaged and planning a wedding, has pulled me away from Twilight a bit. Although I still check Twi fan sites, blog and of course go on twitter, I'm not doing it at every waking moment. I remember a time when I would fly out of bed, grab my coffee and google Robert Pattinson & Kristen Stewart. I had to start my day knowing what was going on with them as well and the Twi world....Now I will go an entire 24 hours without knowing what's going on... I'm definitely not as addicted as I used to be. Addictions need to be fed, and if they aren't...they're bound to taper off, even if just a bit. Silly as this might sound, any non-twi fan would probably think I'm still pretty ridiculously obsessed. I guess to just anyone it appears that way, however if you knew how much MORE I was doing about 9-10 mos ago, you'd see the difference.
Then stuff like this comes along...and it all goes back to how it was.
I kid! I'm really not over it, I just have a lot more balance in my life now. I'm not neglecting housework, I actually shower & my cat finally gets fed regularly ;)
Love you all, hope you know that.
PS A friendly reminder, the MTV MOVIE AWARDS ARE ON AT 9PM PST & EST...which means at 6pm my time, those Twitards will be watching it already...SHIT, no spoilers people!
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